It’s hard to decide on one thing when you have so many options available to you. I understand prioritizing but there’s just so much shit to do, so many nights to enjoy, shit to experience, places to travel. That’s why the motto is fuckkk ittttt & I spend money like water to enjoy everything an anything I want to.
I just feel lost
It’s like being caught in a labyrinth that you started off knowing the right path but you choose a different one instead. Whether it was arrogance or just a desire to walk your own path, now you have clue where you are and how to get back on the right path again. I know I’d know the right path if I saw it but I just can’t seem to get on it. Other people are always encouraging me to take this turn or that one but I just can’t bring myself to listen to somebody else so it probably is the arrogance that led me astray. Sometimes I wish I had someone special to walk with as well, encourage me when I got frustrated or push me along when I wanted to give up but I also believe I think better alone and if I do walk with this person what happens if they leave? Will I still be able to walk on my own or will it seem like to much if there gone? I don’t know the answers. I just know that this labyrinth currently has the best of me which is incredibly frustrating because I know I’m better than it.
What joy we find in simple things, like we
Like playing on the swings
What fun that can be
I push you and you push me
Flying motion, wild and free
But what if…..but what if there is no we
No one there to share & see
Every smile n laugh, it begins to look so empty…..
But no no back to the simple things!
Like laying on the sand & watching the gulls play upon their wings
More laughs followed by a race out to sea
I splash you, you splash me
The warmth of the sun, the coolness of the water, your arms, feels so lovely
But how bout…..how bout if there was no we
Would the great expanse of sand & sea
Start to seem so empty…..
And now it does feel so empty…..
No no think about the simple happy things!
That the memories bring
But I cant
My thoughts drift to things
Like a future pair of simple golden rings
That word does them no justice they mean so much more
Or they would’ve, but not anymore
There was once a we, but not anymore
My shattered heart lays upon the floor
Now that ring of gold
Like that simple place, where I kept my love & joy, inside my soul
Is just so empty
I wanna be in love again. For real this time though. Not some fake love, some change your mind all the time type of love, some one fight and you hate me type of love. That special kind of love, that stare in to your eyes and smile kind of love, that hold your hand and squeeze just to reassure they are still there kind of love. Who knows if it will ever happen but I have my hopes, thats what keeps a smile on my face.
Their are still certain Days when I wear that sad smile and sigh/ About those Days gone by/ Those beautiful, amazing, perfect Days gone by/ Days when I wish time would freeze, instead it flew by/ Days when every hello seemed to be haunted by a good bye/ When I thought there would be endless Days I could stare in to your eyes/ Simple Days but still made my heart double in size/ Days I felt so full of love I could burst/ Days we argued were the absolute worst/ But even those Days were special cause at least it was you and me/ Now Days with you only in the past I can see/ So yes I have those Days/ I wonder if you have those Days/ Where Days would seem be better if we never parted ways/ Just idle thoughts on Days with lonely nights/ At the end of the Days when I’ve turned out the lights/ When I view those beautiful, amazing, perfect Days in hindsight/ I just sigh, wear that sad smile for Days and wish you goodnight-James Richard McGeown the 3rd